Thursday, February 21, 2019

Commitment

Commitment
In the 1945-1988 years I had only one rule to follow. Don't eat foods
containing sugar. My doctors never mentioned carbs. I was very
committed to following that rule. I became so used to using artificial
sweeteners, that a teensy taste of something containing a lot of sugar
was too sweet, and I did not like it. Having only one rule to follow
made it easier.
In 1988 I read an article in a magazine saying that diabetics should
restrict the number of carbs they ate to help keep their blood tests
lower, and more stable. Why didn't my doctors tell me that? That was
my first exposure to carbs. Then I found that some carbs acted faster,
and others more slowly. I started eating smaller portions of the foods
with faster acting carbs, and I stopped eating some foods. There were
more rules to follow, and things became more complicated. Then there was using my first meter in the 1980s, basal and bolus insulins with carb counting in the 1990s, and my insulin pump in 2007. Things were very complicated then. It was so much simpler in my early years to just avoid sugar. It was hard to be committed to having tight control
with all these newer rules, and devices to follow. I sometimes wanted
to just drop everything, and go back to the old ways. I had no
complications despite all the high blood sugar I must have had during
my first 40+ years, so convincing myself to follow all the new rules
and use the new devices was difficult.
I did not know any other diabetics until I joined some diabetes
websites in 2006-2007. That was 61 years after my diagnosis. That
turned things around for me. I met so many diabetics like me, and saw they were struggling with the same problems I was having, or had previously experienced. There were so many not taking good care of themselves, and having diabetes related complications. I could feel myself becoming more and more committed to having really great control. I had always worked hard to have good control, but my online experience made me more committed than ever before.
My commitment has led to my having 71 years of type 1 with no
complications except some neuropathy, and other minor nerve damage. I do not need any medication for that, and I am very fortunate that having only the "no sugar" rule for so many years has not caused me any major problems.
I am definitely committed to being committed. Perhaps diabetics who
are not committed should be committed to online diabetes support
groups! 
What does commitment mean to you?

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